First entry

This blog isn't going to be meant for anything special. It's just somewhere I can blog about life, boring things, and odd thoughts.

I'm the type that has a lot of odd thoughts, but not the good kind that make everyone stop and go Hmmm, no instead I have the kind of odd thoughts that make people stop. That's it, just stop, possibly run away.

Let's see, what is there to know about me? Well, let's start with I'm twenty five years old, female. I'm very confused with my life right now, I'm questioning a lot of things that I've always just assumed. I have an interest in space but lack the talent in math to really develop that interest. I also enjoy the sea and oceans, but to be honest I'm one of those emotional type females and I find much of what is going on in the sea to be much too sad. For one quick example there is a pile of trash, mostly invisible molecules and plastics, floating in the ocean... this pile is larger than Texas. Picture that... Texas floating around in the sea. Made out of trash, and not good trash that will eventually break down, no, plastic that will be around long after we're gone.

I enjoy writing. I think I might even be ok at it. I used to think I was good, then I read some really good works and realized that I was ok. I still try to work on this skill and have dreams of one day being the Stephen King of my generation. It's a long shot, so I have a back up plan. I'm in school to be a teacher. I'm in my first year of college, have some catching up to do, but in four or five years I'll have a real job for life, instead of something I don't even want to admit to.

I've been poor a lot of my life and at this point I'm starting to realize that now it's my own fault. I might not have been able to control a lot of my life growing up, but that doesn't mean I can't now. and yes, there is a lot that is out of your mine or anyone's control. But that doesn't mean I can't prepare and be ready for when I can take control! lol, sorry, I'm on a fix my life kick...

Which brings me to cigs. After smoking since the age of 9 I have decided to quit and quit for real. Like most smokers, especially lifelong smokers, I find myself quitting dozens of times through the day, it just doesn't last. Ask any smoker, they've quit. They'll say they've quit before even while smoking one at the time. Well this is day four of that little experiment and I'm pleased to say I have yet to murder a single soul. That is thanks to God and my friends.